i sleep for you

I had a feelin I’d see you here tonight
Haunting me like you do
I feel your touch, your breath on my face
So close as you whisper you love me
I feel your embrace;
I drown in your arms
I had a feeling I’d feel you tonight.

After a night like this, how could I not
I need you
I need you to calm me like you did in the cold
You are so far from me when I’m alive walking through clouds,
But as I lay my head
Colors again appear
You are there, every night
Haunting me
Keeping me alive
Giving me hope

But soon, yes soon you have to leave me alone
I cant hope for you
i cant breathe for you
I cant wait for you

I would be waiting in vain
For my ghost to come

But until im done, until I find a new vice
The haunting warmth of you in my dreams
Your touch
Your smile
Your voice
The ghost of you my love
Will suffice

dont flatter yourself

This poem isn’t about you
Don’t flatter yourself thinking it is
I don’t love you, I never did
You are the one who hasn’t found me yet
( NOT THE one who thought he did)
You have the ability to consume me
More than those who lied in the past could

More than THOSE WHO MADE ME BELIEVE THEY NEVER WOULD
You won’t make me cry,
You will never lie
This poem isn’t about you, or you, or you
Don’t flatter yourselves
THIS POEM IS FOR YOU!
So find me
Im waiting
To finally trust with all my heart
And not get torn apart
You will be the one
This poem is about you

haunted with my crayon in hand..

I fell in love with a voice that is now silent to me
Late at night it told me:
I was the one
He told me he loved me!
WHAT IS LOVE?
WHY DID I BELIEVE?
Why did he lie, why did he deceive?
LIKE ALL OF THEM…
I believed.
There were no tears
Only another shelf full of new found fears
Should I trust again?
Will I love again?
Will I hear your silent voice again?
The one what led me to believe in love again..
I’m still here
Your there
Still an answer to my unanswered prayer.
Look past the guilt, look past the fear
Look for true love
ALTHOUGH I WONT BE HERE
I Fell in love with your voice, your lies
Your TWISTED alibis
You loved me> YOUR SILENCE HAUNTS ME
You are now nothing to me
GO ON NOW
DO WHAT YOU DO
LEAVE ME

sleepless

They ask me if I'm okay, If this one hurt the most? The answer: I DON'T KNOW. I don't regret one single second spent. I don't regret one smile, one kiss or even one tear. Does it hurt? It hurts. Am I okay? Yes I am more than okay. With each person that comes in and goes out of my life, I consider it a blessing. Each new person teaches me new lessons, helps me get through one more day in this CRAZY LIFE. They may have made me smile when nobody else could. That is how I feel in this case. I laughed, I lived, and I loved. Days of smiling, when I didn't know I could smile like that again. I said goodbye to the past, embraced the present, and LOOKED FORWARD WITH HIGH HOPES TO THE FUTURE. Still nothing has changed, I will continue to look ahead with wide eyes and take each day at a time. I can't change the past, I can only do what I know is right and the pieces to the puzzle will eventually fall into place. Still I feel my prayers have been answered. Why wouldn't I be okay??

ODE to mal

I have a cousin named mal
she has alwasy been my bestest pal
shes a real cool gal

she used to love "together"

we'll be best friends forever

she has a brother named mike

she loves to ride her bike

she even has a boyfriend i like

her favorite thing to do is jam'

the yougest in her fam is cam

i want her in florida to share christmas ham.

if she doesnt i'll be sad

chris will even be mad

but it might be cause i have to convince her dad

so little mal gal heres your poem

you asked me to write over texting on the phone

now i'll watch the clock till its time to go home.

hahahah i love you mal.. i will write a better one later, but this one was pretty sick huh!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU

i miss you.

why is missing someone so hard?
it is emotionally draining
it hurts
and is sometimes not worth it.

And is it possible to miss more than one person in the same way?
I try to forget about things of the past
I try to meet new people to miss.
maybe then the pain will stop
still, I miss the people who changed my life,
who made me smile,
taught me to love,
who I fell in love with,
and who broke my heart.

I can still love and miss the ones who have broken my heart.
and i do.

Is it just me,
am I the only hanging on?
how do i let go??

When i find out how to break these chains that hold me back,
keep me in the past,
and sometimes make me cry with smiling eyes....

I still dont think I will let go.
how can you let go when you still have a place in your heart
that can only be filled by the person who once captivated it.

Someday, I hope someone will capture all of my heart.
I may still miss those I loved,
but finally,
once again
I will love, and be loved with all my heart.

I am ready and waiting to fall, i miss you.

PUZZLED

WHY DID I NOT LOVE YOU ENOUGH
WHEN YOU LOVED ME

MY HEART WAS BROKEN AND SCATTERED
THE PIECES ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE TO RETRIEVE

YOU DARED TO PICK UP THE PIECES
SEARCHING IN ALL THE WRONG PLACES
YET STUMBLING ACROSS SOME SHARP EDGES
ENOUGH TO GET MY HEART BEATING ONCE AGAIN

SOMEWHERE
SOMEHOW
YOU PIECED MY HEART BACK TOGETHER

tHEY SAY IT TAKES YEARS TO HEAL A BROKEN HEART
IT TOOK MINE TWO

tWO OF THE BEST YEARS OF MY LIFE
YOU TAUGHT ME HOW TO TRUST AGAIN

TO LOVE
LAUGH
AND LIVE AGAIN

YOU BROKE MY HEART AGAIN.

YOU WERE ALL I TRUSTED, ALL I LOVED

THE REASON I SMILED.
NOW I CRY

NOBODY CAN PICK UP THE PIECES OF MY BROKEN HEART
THEY BELONG TO ONLY YOU

YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN FINISH MY PUZZLE
YOU ARE THE MISSING PIECE

AS HARD AS I TRY TO FIT RANDOM PIECES I COME ALONG,
I REALIZE THEY DON'T FIT LIKE YOU FIT.

SO COMPLETE ME, LET ME COMPLETE YOU
I NEED TO YOU
ONCE AGAIN I ASK

WILL YOU PICK UP THE PIECES?