i sleep for you

I had a feelin I’d see you here tonight
Haunting me like you do
I feel your touch, your breath on my face
So close as you whisper you love me
I feel your embrace;
I drown in your arms
I had a feeling I’d feel you tonight.

After a night like this, how could I not
I need you
I need you to calm me like you did in the cold
You are so far from me when I’m alive walking through clouds,
But as I lay my head
Colors again appear
You are there, every night
Haunting me
Keeping me alive
Giving me hope

But soon, yes soon you have to leave me alone
I cant hope for you
i cant breathe for you
I cant wait for you

I would be waiting in vain
For my ghost to come

But until im done, until I find a new vice
The haunting warmth of you in my dreams
Your touch
Your smile
Your voice
The ghost of you my love
Will suffice

dont flatter yourself

This poem isn’t about you
Don’t flatter yourself thinking it is
I don’t love you, I never did
You are the one who hasn’t found me yet
( NOT THE one who thought he did)
You have the ability to consume me
More than those who lied in the past could

More than THOSE WHO MADE ME BELIEVE THEY NEVER WOULD
You won’t make me cry,
You will never lie
This poem isn’t about you, or you, or you
Don’t flatter yourselves
THIS POEM IS FOR YOU!
So find me
Im waiting
To finally trust with all my heart
And not get torn apart
You will be the one
This poem is about you

haunted with my crayon in hand..

I fell in love with a voice that is now silent to me
Late at night it told me:
I was the one
He told me he loved me!
WHAT IS LOVE?
WHY DID I BELIEVE?
Why did he lie, why did he deceive?
LIKE ALL OF THEM…
I believed.
There were no tears
Only another shelf full of new found fears
Should I trust again?
Will I love again?
Will I hear your silent voice again?
The one what led me to believe in love again..
I’m still here
Your there
Still an answer to my unanswered prayer.
Look past the guilt, look past the fear
Look for true love
ALTHOUGH I WONT BE HERE
I Fell in love with your voice, your lies
Your TWISTED alibis
You loved me> YOUR SILENCE HAUNTS ME
You are now nothing to me
GO ON NOW
DO WHAT YOU DO
LEAVE ME

sleepless

They ask me if I'm okay, If this one hurt the most? The answer: I DON'T KNOW. I don't regret one single second spent. I don't regret one smile, one kiss or even one tear. Does it hurt? It hurts. Am I okay? Yes I am more than okay. With each person that comes in and goes out of my life, I consider it a blessing. Each new person teaches me new lessons, helps me get through one more day in this CRAZY LIFE. They may have made me smile when nobody else could. That is how I feel in this case. I laughed, I lived, and I loved. Days of smiling, when I didn't know I could smile like that again. I said goodbye to the past, embraced the present, and LOOKED FORWARD WITH HIGH HOPES TO THE FUTURE. Still nothing has changed, I will continue to look ahead with wide eyes and take each day at a time. I can't change the past, I can only do what I know is right and the pieces to the puzzle will eventually fall into place. Still I feel my prayers have been answered. Why wouldn't I be okay??