i miss you.

why is missing someone so hard?
it is emotionally draining
it hurts
and is sometimes not worth it.

And is it possible to miss more than one person in the same way?
I try to forget about things of the past
I try to meet new people to miss.
maybe then the pain will stop
still, I miss the people who changed my life,
who made me smile,
taught me to love,
who I fell in love with,
and who broke my heart.

I can still love and miss the ones who have broken my heart.
and i do.

Is it just me,
am I the only hanging on?
how do i let go??

When i find out how to break these chains that hold me back,
keep me in the past,
and sometimes make me cry with smiling eyes....

I still dont think I will let go.
how can you let go when you still have a place in your heart
that can only be filled by the person who once captivated it.

Someday, I hope someone will capture all of my heart.
I may still miss those I loved,
but finally,
once again
I will love, and be loved with all my heart.

I am ready and waiting to fall, i miss you.

PUZZLED

WHY DID I NOT LOVE YOU ENOUGH
WHEN YOU LOVED ME

MY HEART WAS BROKEN AND SCATTERED
THE PIECES ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE TO RETRIEVE

YOU DARED TO PICK UP THE PIECES
SEARCHING IN ALL THE WRONG PLACES
YET STUMBLING ACROSS SOME SHARP EDGES
ENOUGH TO GET MY HEART BEATING ONCE AGAIN

SOMEWHERE
SOMEHOW
YOU PIECED MY HEART BACK TOGETHER

tHEY SAY IT TAKES YEARS TO HEAL A BROKEN HEART
IT TOOK MINE TWO

tWO OF THE BEST YEARS OF MY LIFE
YOU TAUGHT ME HOW TO TRUST AGAIN

TO LOVE
LAUGH
AND LIVE AGAIN

YOU BROKE MY HEART AGAIN.

YOU WERE ALL I TRUSTED, ALL I LOVED

THE REASON I SMILED.
NOW I CRY

NOBODY CAN PICK UP THE PIECES OF MY BROKEN HEART
THEY BELONG TO ONLY YOU

YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN FINISH MY PUZZLE
YOU ARE THE MISSING PIECE

AS HARD AS I TRY TO FIT RANDOM PIECES I COME ALONG,
I REALIZE THEY DON'T FIT LIKE YOU FIT.

SO COMPLETE ME, LET ME COMPLETE YOU
I NEED TO YOU
ONCE AGAIN I ASK

WILL YOU PICK UP THE PIECES?

in the end

we think differenty

looking in seperate directions

directions which lead us down different paths of life.

we may loose touch

we may crash along the way

but i know she will be there at the end

to cheer me on

never forgetting

how she helped me along the way

lifted me when i fell

and remained forever

my best friend.